exhaling siddhartha

as i came to the end of the book- i ´ve realized there is no such thing as a holy man or a holy spirit. down where we are - in this planet upon which we call earth- there is no such thing as holy or perfection.
in sid´s point of view - for a man to undesrtand the pleasures the misfurtunes one most experience it- thus in experiencing, one will find oneself.
is it not true? how we sometimes desobey our parents regardeless of their commendations? how we have that curiosity to do the forbidden or maybe u want to see what the fuss is all about?!
sid went into earths greatest pleasures: drinks , sex, wealth. In the beginning of this adventure he had patience , he could listen, he was kind , he could wait and fast. everyone that he worked for as a merchant would rather him over his "teacher"- who lost his patience very easily. however sid saw that in the end he himself had lost his ability to listen and to mantain traquility and as to be calm he would drink wine and enter lifes " ´pleasures" . Now all he had was nausea , and sickness out of being grossed out at the person he had become and at the life he was tasting.it tasted sour. he left the twon.he came across the ferrymen who took him across the river into the nausea town- there he learned to listen to river he learned to wait , fast and have patience all over again there the river had spoken to him teaching him new things- sometimes it laughed at him for the stupidity he was gonna do or had done and other times gave advice- the river (for me ) could easily be seen as the conscience. if for a time we stop to listen to our thoughts without paying attention to what its saying we hear it say as if sounding from outside .. or something of the sort.
to hermen hesse the holy man exixted in each one of us- and we have to experience everything to be in contact with sociaty and its weakness and joyfullness in order to discover the greater peace.the holy man beholded in him the virtues of a child- simplicity - pureness of heart. even though in the book sids child was not at all pure- when u imagine a child u picture an innocent.
the book may be saying something else and i only understood what i wanted to.
sid became a holy man through the eyes of the beholder- to urself ur never holy ur just better. in constant change and aperfeicoamento. it is also stated that there is no such thing as the words samsara or nirvanna but yet the state of life which is not a half second or a moment but a part of ur life ur new life when u finally have come to a conclusion where something have answeres and others are just lying there. simple pleasures- not sex, not alcohol- but yet the nature beuty, the admiration for such amazing things...yes we should worship the nature around us ans try to learn from them - fromt he animals the plants. they are so submiss, they have instinct. and with that we can see their purity. talk to a dometic plant nicely and the plant lives even blooms , tell a plant to die or treat them with harsh words u will see them die. another exemple is the submission of animals. tell a domesticated dog to leave u alone kick him and tell him to leave- the next minute or mornign he will be there by ur side with the paper in his mouth asing for caress. and thats sort of how we should be: humble , obedient to mans law but above all loving with unconditional love. that was sids most dificult aproach that was the thing he feared and wanted most: to learn how to love. although i did not quite undesrtand all of the last chapteri got this from it and if i could tell anyone anything about this book i´d say read its worth while - u´l get a different perspective of the world surrounding u.and maybe even apply.so to my fellow visitors so long and enjoy the rest of ur time - spending it wisely- no hatred no party over the limit - just the right amount to enjoy life at its pure, simplest ,naive, form.