i feel lost without a path
i feel like nothing was mine
i feel destroyed and completely erased by society
i feel i cant find confort in any truth
i feel i cant be my self anymore
i feel that my identity is lost
i feel that trust is never possible
i feel disgusted and horrified
i feel injusticide( if that is even a word)
i feel tormented
i feel sadness
inside of me, my heart aches, because now i know, that i cant be who i am, and it hurts, to not be comprehended by anyone, it hurts to have to anulate ur self , in order to be understood, it hurts to hear the truth, and it hurts to see that all i believed on where lies, it hurts to live in a world where trut is not in the first stage , and it hurts that u have to believe that everyone is malicius and evil, it hurts to trap my extravagant feelings indoors,it hurts...
the air i so long ago brethed happily, now lies heavy upon me
its hard to breath
its hard to change who u are, who u were all ur life... its hard to face the fact, that everyone else is right and that u are so terribly wrong
its hard to see the truth..its hard to face the world
and what i wish the most is to fall back in denial... to just forget it, and let it go... but i know that those who trully love me, wont let me fall back on my knees....
i cant say i hate the world i'm living in, for i love life...
but there is something to be said about my life style, and that is a phrase i used to carry with me since 8th grade and that had been lost for a while:" i suck at life, and living life sucks."
