Thursday, May 19, 2005

a cry for help

it is a simple task: to live life!!!
i know precisely everything there is to know about life or death... i don´t fear neither- its the in between things i am not to found of....]
like for instance in life: the more i get to know about marriege the less i wanna bve married the more i get to know about workning , the less i wanna start a job....
the more i get to know about the after life the less wanna go there, the more i get to see what has to be done to my life to improve my self , the less options i have.
i stand in a position where i have all the cards laying in front of me- but no way to reach it... no way to grasp it and find a solution.
at the present moment my life goes well , while my parents and whole family drifts into misery- i mean misery; as in low income payment ,misery of lack of money, and lack of luck.ITs all spilled in a puddle - crambled up together and no way to find the beggining or the ending , its one problem after the other , or even before.....
how do i get a person to realize the good things in life when everything turns out like crap? .... life is settled and i have no means , and no power to do anything at will.... its weiderly how one problem pulls into the other and as if a areia movedica u get urself deeper and deeper....
there is no alternitive everywhere to look there are walls, that enable you to find a solution....

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